A Change In Perspective

I would like for this generation to stop growing up so fast.

• I want kids to play outside, on a playground sans the Blackberry or iPhone. 
• I want kids to pick up an actual book, laugh at it’s contents and finish it with a satisfactory smile. 
• I want them to have ambitions and dreams sans the distractions from dating too early. Or worst, get pregnant thus throwing their life away.
• I want them to stop the ridiculous competition of trying to look/act older. Why do I see 12 years old looking like they’re 16?
• Just because you have sex doesn’t mean you’re a woman/man. No, you’re still just a kid so ;earn to slow down. 
• Just because you see some adults drinking and partying doesn’t mean that every grown up in the planet do it. Learn how to take care of your body.

You’re still a kid, you have plenty of time to act like an adult once you get older! Go out, have some fun, do something worth remembering (Sans the alcohol, sex, or drugs)! You’re only a kid once, it’s okay to act like one.

You know what I hate the most about high school?

It’s the people. Most of them are so petty. If someone dresses differently from them, doesn’t wear the name brand names as them, or listen to the same music as them, those people are generally shunned, put of as “freaks” or “weirdos.” Everyone’s too afraid to break the status quo. It’s so rare to find a group of friends who all have distinct styles and taste, yet they fit perfectly with each other. It’s so rare to find someone who doesn’t care about the status quo, who’s willing to interact with all kinds of people. 

Humans. We all want something we can’t have. Whether it is substantial or not, we still want it. Some people — the passive ones — will be able realize that they cannot have what they desire. Instead of giving it up however, they choose to observe the thing they love from a distance. Taking in the beauty of the things they want with the scrutiny of their eyes  but never making a move to claim something that they cannot have.

Other people — the determined ones — will try their best to try to obtain the things that they want. Most of them succeed for they work hard and have the awareness of perseverance. They earn their right to claim the things they want but even they cannot have everything they desire.

The last type of people — the aggressive ones — who will stop at nothing until they get what they think they deserve. They are usually cruel, liars, heartless, selfish, and cunning. The only thing that matters to them is themselves and what they will be able to gain in the long run. These all the people that will screw you over just so they can get the things they want. They are corrupted and in turn, they corrupt everything around them as well. 

Humans are greedy. We are generally screwed by those who are corrupted and cruel ‘cause face it, hate is much less complicated to deal with than any other emotions we could feel. We can run, we can kick, we can punch, but we are never willing to give out our heart for the fear of getting hurt. Out of all these types of people, I would like to say that I’m the second. My mindset is to work for the things that I obtain. I’m independent and determined, if I want something bad enough, I will work my ass off to make sure I’ll get what I want. Those are the types of people that I like to surround myself with.

1. If a girl rejects a guy, she has self respect. If a guy rejects a girl, he’s either and asshole or he’s gay.
2. If a girl sleeps with many guys, she’s a slut. If a guy sleeps with many girls, he’s the coolest guy on the block.
3. When two girls kiss, they are generally accepted. When two guys kiss, they are generally shunned. 
4. If a key can open many different locks, it’s a Master Key. If a lock can be opened by many different keys, it’s a shitty lock.
5. Girls want a bad boy who is only good for her. Boys want a good girl who is only bad for him.

Life’s fucked up like that.

It’s Mother’s Day today yet he completely disappeared since 9 a.m. this morning and has yet to come back. He never once said “Happy Mother’s Day” to our mother, not even a call or a text. Nope, he just left a gift-card on the kitchen table ; addressing it with his name and then he was gone. Why do I have to have such an insensitive jerk for a brother? It’s not like he has a bad relationship with our parents or anything, they hardly ever fight. I admit that they’ve been drifting apart however, but that’s only because he’s always out of the house; never returning until the clock strikes 12. He doesn’t realize how lucky he is to have both of them in his life. Yet there he goes with his disappearing act. What’s so important on a Sunday that you can’t stay home and spend the time with the woman who birthed and raised you? It’s only one day a year and you can’t even give that to her you selfish, egotistical jerk!

*Sigh* Talking about him just get me more frustrated. I can only hope that he will soon realize how important our parents are and to not take them for granted. The future is unpredictable, therefore if anything goes wrong, he can only blame himself for not getting his head out of his ass sooner. To all the people out there who’s reading my ridiculous rant on the brother I never wanted, please remember to treat your parents right. They won’t be with you forever so treasure your time with them.

• Disappointed. 
• Sad.
• Heartbroken. 
• Distressed. 
• Bitter. 
• Dejected. 
• Regretful. 
• Depressed. 
• Baffled. 
• Frustrated. 

All because I lost you, someone who used to mean the world to me. I wish I could ask you how you’re doing, or if there’s anything special going on in your life. But I can’t. ‘Cause your parents probably told you to never associate with “strangers” and that’s what we are; no boisterous laughs, just awkward silences. It sucks, to have someone you care about one day and for them to disappear from your life in the next. Why must life be so unfair? You probably think I no longer care. But just so you know, though we no longer keep in touch, I still smile at your random statuses and I often find myself checking up on you from time to time; just to see if you’re alright. I still think about my “stranger” regularly and it kills me to know that I’ve lost such a good friend. But I digress. So maybe, just maybe, sometime in the future, we could go back to where we left off again. With us laughing at our ridiculously lame jokes. But now, I can only hope that you are thinking about me as well.

I consider death to be ambivalent; meaning it’s both good and bad. For the normal-healthy people like us, death is something that is horrendous and generally disrelish. It is a cruel process that could end the life of someone who is well loved. Someone with a dream. Someone who planned on traveling the world and living in a white picket-fenced house. Yet for some people, death is a blessing for it could get rid of all their pain and suffering. They no longer have to feel those horrid feelings of guilt, agony, affliction, or even anguish. In a way, death set them free. Therefore it is ambivalent.

I once thought that unrequited love was the hardest love in the whole world. I mean, can you imagine loving someone and for them not to love you back? It’s like giving your heart to someone and allowing them to step on it, destroying it with one heavy, loud squish . It hurts too much to love someone and see that they love someone else beside you. Though that is so, it’s not as painful as loving someone — acknowledging that they love you back — and knowing that you can never be together. How do you get over someone you truly love, knowing that they love you as much as you love them? The “what if”s will continue to haunt you and the pain will only multiply as time passes by. Loving someone you can’t have is much more painful than having an unrequited love because you do not have the blessing for it to break once and for all, you will continue to die inside and wish for that person you love, never getting that wish granted.

To all the beautiful mothers out there — who went through immense pain in order to birth us — I hope for you all to have a wonderful day. I hope for you all to stay healthy and for those who are ill, I wish for you all to get better soon. Have a great day everyone~

And for all of you youngsters out there, remember to treat your mother like a queen!

Chuang Tzu said “the fish trap exists because of the fish. Once you’ve gotten the fish you can forget the trap. The rabbits snare exists because of the rabbit. Once you’ve gotten the rabbit, you can forget the snare.” 

I think this is one of human’s biggest flaws. Humans usually are never satisfied with the things we have. We go on different journeys in the hope of “bettering” our lives. And once something better has been found, we forget everything else simply because it is no longer good enough for us. 

• …………………………………………
• What the hell does that mean?
• Did I really learn this?
• AH, I’M SCREWED.
• My ass hurts, this chair is uncomfortable.
• Oooh, I didn’t fill out (a,b,c,d,e) for a while, I should do it now.
• I’m too stupid for this.
• WTF, I’VE NEVER EVEN HEARD OF THIS.
• Urgh, I wanna go home.
• I’m screwed. I’m screwed. I’m screwed.
• HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THIS?!
• Shit, I give up.